A Breath of Fresh Air: I wish I knew what you thought of me.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

I wish I knew what you thought of me.

When I grow up, I will turn heads. My chocolate brown curls will tumble to my waist and I will smell like vanilla butter creme, a sent so sweet it sends you to fantasy land. You will want to reach out and touch my lean, swan like legs, emphasized by heels of every color. My cheeks will not be as full, not as red, and my eyes will be big. I will wear cyan blue contacts in contrast to my olive skin. I will teach yoga in California, in a big room with a thousand windows leaking sunshine through open bamboo shades. I will be able to get any guy I want, because I'm that beautiful and have that kind of personality. Though, I am merely thirteen. I am not yet that girl I'm describing. When I grow up, I am going to leave this jersey suburb. And I will be the happiest person. Like, ever.
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q233CxlIZtk
If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman?
If I’m alive and well, will you be
There a-holding my hand?
I’ll keep you by my side
With my superhuman might
Kryptonite
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Today's trip: Great adventure
Last time I was at great adventure
In line for Superman, a conversation came up about turrets. The counselor that was with us was telling us about this girl she saw on TV who was almost bipolar because of that. She would curse like crazy, and sometimes bark when it was a bad day for her turrets. She knew what she was doing was wrong but she couldn't not say what was on her mind. Its part of the syndrome. When the turrets wasn't bothering her another day she would be herself, a person that didn't appear to be affected by turrets. [I found the video here Here ] That got me thinking- almost selfishly, considering how serious this syndrome is- about me. I wonder if people see who I am? or if I even am me to other people? Is the person I show to other people the same person in my own mind? Or am I piratically bipolar? I consider myself dreadfully boring. I truly hope I'm not like that on the outside, and I just know myself to well.
Inspirational Video on Turretes
I love great adventure! We went on a whole bunch of roller coasters. The only ride that we went on that wasn't a coaster was the skyline. Of coarse I was sitting in a cart thing with Kara and Jaws, Jaws was screaming "I LOVE YOU!" to every cart that passed by. Me and Kara kept apologizing but it was kinda funny.
On the bus Coming home from the park, the girl in front of us was mad for some reason so guess what obnoxious thing she said? "Oh vagina!" WTF!? What is this world coming to?

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Strawberry said...: I'm going to live in Maine or Virginia.
Married with kids.
Writer.
Live in a gorgeous and ancient Victorian house.
...but most probably in suburbia.
I don't want to get out, though, cuz I'm not trapped.
After all, I wanna go to Princeton, and that's in New Jersey.
I don't want to leave. Just explore.; August 14, 2009 at 7:26 AM

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Family Alex- my sister. She's blond, and tall and the opposite of me. I'm way cooler than her. Dad- stay with him Tuesday and Thursday night and every other weekend. Mother- Stay with her all the other days. She has issues she should have sorted out before she decided to have children.
Almost Family Lolo- She is a little bit creepy, as in she talks to inanimate objects, yet I've been friends with her since first grade. She very much embarrasses me. I don’t sit next to her in lunch. She’s practically my sister though. I mean, by dad drives her to Boats gymnastics tournaments. She lives down the street from my mom, on the same bus and both take French. It’s hard not to see a lot of her. Boat- Lolo’s sister. She’s a tiny little 10 year old with corkskrew curls and freckles. Kira- Alex’s best friend who is obsessed with pokemon and her cats. She has like 20 cats. I can’t stay at her house for long periods of time because I’m allergic.
The Bus Stop Suprya- Very tall, she sticks gum in between the side walk pannels and spits on her old gum as she walks by every morning. A grade younger Gianna- Also a year younger. Shes Hispanic and popular and has a new york accent. Josh- hated me until spirit week until he found out I was on his spirit week team. 2 years younger.
School Friends Strawberry- I try not to sit next to her too. She smells. Ani- I sit next to her at lunch. Me and her drink milk boxes with uber cool straws. Melissa- She talks bad about everyone when there not listening and she hits things when she laughs. I classify the thing she usually hits. Sara (AKA ringo)- She follows us all around and tries to force friendship on all of the above, and I don't have the heart to tell her I don't enjoy her company. Flute- plays the flute, a little bit of a nerd. She’s brilliant too. Shelly- My one and only lacrosse friend. She also is in all my classes. She's so sweet and brought us cupcakes on her birthday which I didn't know about. I spent like 3 days strait after her birthday telling her I was sorry. Silver- a creative genius. Kim- in my advisory. We play apples to apples a lot. Moo- We go way back, into times where we weren’t really friends… my texting buddy.
Ani's Family Lizzie- her biological sister, same age as Rachel. She’s the mega popular at her school, Kurutzi. Aunt Nicki- Ani's aunt who she lives with. She's so sweet, and should be a therapist because something about her makes me want to tell her my problems. Uncle Bob- The spouse of Aunt Niki. He yells a lot, but when he isn’t mad, he's actually pretty nice. Rachel- Ani's cousin. She's taller than me, and she's really girly. She's 2 years younger than me like Alex. She calls me Natalia. Robert- Ani's cousin who is 1 grade older than us. He's a nerd. He bowls competitively. Sarah- She's Rachel’s and Roberts cousin. Uncle bob's brothers child. 1 year younger than me. She has scoliosis, and wears a brace. Don't punch her or you'll feel eternal pain in your knuckles. She starts a lot of drama with Lizzie and Rachel, but not purposely. She goes to Kurutzi too.
Other School People BP-an ex lover of mine. Super popular, yet in 6ht grade he liked me… Basil- Strawberry’s “lover” or hater…
Youth group Brent- the adult guy who works at the church. I think he has twisted views of a Christian, but I guess if I were a good Christian myself I wouldn’t judge. Juli- Brent's wife. She makes really good food. Taylor- A year younger than me, yet she's like brilliant and has awesome social skills. Which is saying something because she is home schooled. Sergio- A really hot guy that’s 2 years younger than me, and has a mustache. He once had an undying love for Alex. He got over it. Plottsi- Yes, he's a real boy, unlike Pinocchio. A year younger than me. He’s olive toned and innocent. Nathan- I thought his name was chip for like 6 months, but it isn’t. He's tall and Asian. And he isn’t in the junior high youth group, he's in senior high. I wouldn’t see him at all if his mom didn’t work at the church. Nickolas- Nathans brother The creepy twins- there creepy and twins. What's more to say? Christine- everything she wears is from hot topic except the thick eyeliner on her eyes. Julia- She has thick dark hair and blunt bangs. She's so shy but I broke into her, and we're friends now. Tim- He's tan and narrow, plays a lot of basketball and doesn't like me. Really. He like avoids me at all costs. Even if it means not answering my direct questions. Ani, Melissa, Rachel, Lizzie, Sarah- see above
Camp Bus 21- Phil- boats age. His name is actually tyler, but we all call him Phil. Reece- has a big head and loves Taylor Swift. Morgan- Reece’s brother, she’s sweet as long as your nice to her. She will literally hurt you if you aren’t. Gabbriel- Morgan’s age (I don’t know how old they are) she’s a tomboy who wears her hat backwards and is in a love hate relationship with Morgan Blondie- a blond guy who hates me because I screwed up, big time. He can’t find it in that black heart of his to forgive. He gets in trouble a lot. Probably because he flippes random people off and teached little kids the F word. Luke- an autistic 9 year old who learned the F word from blondie. He likes gimp and Indiana Jones. Jordan- Blondies right hand man who has gorgeous curly hair and smilles at me because he knows it kills me. He’s still nicer than blondie. Once he closed lukes window when it was raining when Luke couldn’t get it up. It killed me more. Lolo, Alex Boat- see above
Camp Clique- Jaws- 5’4 inches of probably pot smoking mad man. No joke. Mira- the opposite of jaws, cool calm collected and rejected by the pot smoking community. Kara- She’s the funny one who I was never friends with until last year. Lolo - see above
Other Camp Friends Maxine- really tall, really popular. So many boyfriends. Finola- And you think Maxine has a lot of boyfriends. She isn’t a virgin. Other Camp PeopleRachel- Not really a friend, but still there. She hates her grandma. Carrot- short tan, and probably gay. Savvy- Carrots twin, and heftily built. Meanie Moose- he broke the antlers Alex made for him. No lie. Very mean. Kevin- lives next door to moo, and IM’s me sometimes. He’s a really nerdy player, but still a player/ Julian- Used Rachel to get to me. He told me he liked me, even though I’ve never said two words to him. Pom-pom- I’m a user… but she never found out… Moo- see above

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